Last Saturday, July 3rd, I was still in a type of relaxed stupor as we drove down the interstate heading home from a pleasant week in the Northern Adirondack mountains. Some time back I recall reading someone’s blog about being in a state of mind where thought was non-existant. I realized by Wednesday last week that I had nearly reached that state. It was 5 am, the sun trying to peer over the edge of the mountain and show its face before the clouds thickened when the thought hit me that I actually had no real thoughts since arriving at the lake. Meals and activities were not planned, we just did as the moment dictated. We went no where. I spent much of my time lost in books or staring at the lake without contemplation. I slept better than I had since, well I can’t remember the last time I had uninterrupted sleep. 🙂
Normally my early morning walks beneath the pines along the water’s edge would set my mind swirling, encompassing the beauty and life around me easing any stress that might have traveled with me to the cabin. Upon returning to the cabin I would grab my writing paper and fresh brewed coffee and begin jotting my thoughts down. This had not happened all week. The beauty of the time and place embraced me with a peacefulness and shield that blocked any incoming thoughts of the time before arriving or what was to come when I left. I seemed to see my surroundings but I didn’t feel the energy and stimulation from them that I normally do. My normal reactions to the marvelous mountains and nature’s wonders around me was missing. I wasn’t sad, nor joyous or contemplative. I was just there. When this realization hit me, I couldn’t help but wonder what was wrong with me.
I am often sad to leave the lake. This time I had no feelings about returning home. As we headed south I felt like something was awakening in me. I felt calm and peaceful ready to face anything.
Despite colder than normal temperatures, some drizzly days and high winds, last week turned out to be one of most relaxed vacations I have ever had!
There’s a calming silence drifting through my home. We said our farewells and gave our hugs to the 11 yr. old grandson who presently lives with us as he was whisked off to Maine for the summer. He’ll be staying with his great-aunt and uncle on the ocean front. You might wonder what more could a kid ask for. This little guy probably would ask for stable parents.
It’s been a long and challenging road since I retired early a couple of years ago. I had suggested to the spouse that we could move far enough away when he retired so that our so-called adult children could not bother us. Well, we moved, but we’re still in the same area. So much for distance.
I have a tight schedule again today. A doctor’s appointment at 8am and then court at 11am. Supposedly I will be made legal guardian for “R,” my grandson. Sometime today I need to finish packing. We are going to the Adirondacks to a cabin on a lake for a week. I have a couple good books and my writing paper all packed. I plan on relaxing! Hopefully my mind will find a peaceful flow once again and I will have time to post here when I return after July 3rd.
I couldn’t help myself. This was too funny if not sad in its truth not to pass it on to others!
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